Trouble concentrating
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Well, not to worry. I really don't think it's onset dementia or anything serious.
I'll tell you about it maybe some of you can relate to parts of it.
My mind has become OCD I think as a survival mechanism more than anything else.
Frankly, living with a hostile, irrational, and unpredictable person has both forced me into being compulsive about where my possessions are, what I need to do, the physical tools I need to have for lack of a better word, having the supplies, and, along this situation, a need to surveil this person's unannounced coming and going, that requires a lot of timing and impprovising to be able to get anything done. 24/7.
I'm minimalist, organized, and like everything to be clean at all times, by nature, anyway, and the person I live with is the opposite.
He cleans what he wants to, doesn't mind leaving a mess, and is chaotic.
This stress is compounded by the fact he's made there outside messes prompting two written warnings, and a third written warning would result in eviction according to the lease and Florida statutes.
A quick example of how it is in my household. I had to clean up the third mess, with the second written notice because if I didn't, it would not have been done in the re-inspection date.
Of course, the last thing I did was spray down the side of the house and the carport. That's what you do in Florida.
Long story short, the person I live with, immediately, when I was finished, unscrewed the only hose that can be used for this purpose, put it in a pushcart, and took it to the dumpsters.
The only thing I buy for household use is garbage bags. I stocked up on them and hope they don't run out.
The start of '26, with all changes to my monthly budget combined, has put it at a breaking point.
Then there's doomscrolling. But as I'm sure everyone has observed-- what isn't doomscrolling it not looking at any news page, looking at any news and opinion magazine, or basically looking at your phone's news feed, or clicking on the any search engine app, not to mention any of certain apps with search engines?
I'm having a hard time concentrating on the doom and gloom, a hard time not concentrating on it, and, on the other hand, having a hard time concentrating on anything interesting or entertaining.
I'm sorry if this is TMI. Thanks for reading if you made it this far.
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This is probably not much help but...
You need a holiday, couple of weeks away, like on a cruise.So do I. Five hours on my knees laying carpet today, the fun only interrupted by an 80 year old friend wanting advice about getting a deposit back on a £35k Lexus because his insurance quoted £6000.
We all got problems. Whether freezing in Ukraine or living in a tent in Gaza, poverty destroys the spirit.
For me, the antidote to the doom with which we are now bombarded (mostly people doing and saying stupid & nasty things) is these words:
Everyday the soul is again as good as new, and again we offer it to our brothers and sisters in life.And, I'm looking forward to you writing in a few months how you're moving into a new home.