WTF-Beta

Oh, and I decided to be a team player, sign the papers, and move on with life. I also reconciled with my cousin and SIL this morning. It's not a perfect world. My father certainly never said any such thing. It's time for me to move forward.

I've said this before and I'll say it again-- the list of ingredients does not list all ingredients.

Having said that, out of a sense of depression, resulting from having to stare down a list of numbers, including a revolting upcoming payment to my cousin of 24k for her work as executor as defined by statue (revolting), and being caught off guard and strong armed by the probate attorney (technical, of course) after working with my attorney in Florida diligently for months and fully expecting a different process than the one that was shoved in my face, with a warning that it I didn't sign, the probate attorney would have to do more work and I'd receive less (I'm pissed off, it you couldn't tell),...

I decided, at least this once, to eat myself half to death.

And I did. And I didn't read labels.

I'll feel like death warmed over and I'll regret doing it.

But it's one of the ways I sometimes deal with stress. And that's what happened.

Andy, I agree. You probably have the clothes to put in it. I'd buy their smaller duffel bag for mine if I hadn't reached my $ limit for leather products.

I like this. I like it because it's a hardcase. I have no use for it at all.

https://timeresistance.com/products/leather-attache-case-briefcase-a-legacy

(Black.)

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@andyd You'd be proud of me. I've decided to buy NOTHING. That was the point of my balm story. I'll but it but only because I need to protect my investment. Anyway, I certainly think that these bags will last the rest of my life.

This one is for when you need to carry a lot of stuff, you need to carry 8" x 11" folders and papers, and when you want your arms to be free like an astronaut. 🤪

This is the piece de resistance. It took me a lifetime of looking. It's my favorite and always will be:

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I paid $140. Inflation.

Balm and they'll be good as new.

Pianos? Maybe I'll start with a Yamaha digital. I played the organ, the violin, and the clarinet (quite well).

But I would be just starting piano and I'm a little rusty like the Tin Man in the Wizard of Oz.

I need some real peace and quiet, these upcoming hurdles to be in the past, some state of the art imaging, and physical therapy, no doubt.

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It has happened to many of us!

I never expected it to happen to me.

I'm glad it did!

Learning, who am I kidding... being independent (yeah, I'm learning; I'm only getting better at it) is one of the best things that's happened in my life, maybe the best thing, and 100% for the best.

I've always had a protector, someone I could rely on, and if I'm being honest, for most of my life, I've had "a second"; a best friend, to balance out my "inner circle."

I can't say that what my father did wasn't a blessing (what a blessing, and as I've said, 100% not expected) but my life has taken something of a 90° turn (and was doing that already and for a long time).

I can't adequately describe in words how much I want to live by myself.

I welcome the independence, freedom, and, privacy 100%.

You'd think I might have negative feeling about this subject. I really don't.

I'm going to be exactly where I want to be at this stage of my life.

I should stop being in a bad mood, put one foot in front of the other, and go where I'm going as fast as possible.

Btw, I will be less self-absorbed once I move and de facto am not living here. I think this is the largest transition I've made or ever will make in life.

I think that that this is what the Universe wanted to happen, and I'm so much more at peace with it than I ever used to believe I would be.

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Love him from what I see and have seen over the years.

I hope I'm not being naive, but he seems like a good person, as opposed to the many billionaires who, in their own written words, are intent on world domination.

I got the final papers. 3 more signatures. 3 more notary stamps. 3 more witnesses x 2.

It was a minor miracle I got them. USPS comes to your house. You don't know the day. You don't know the time. They make you sign your name in a screen while never letting their machine leave their hand. They don't check your ID. It is a joke.

I was lucky he knocked on the back door when I was just out of the shower in a towel. Or I would have missed him.

But I lucked out. I got what the probate attorney sent me.

You'd think I'd be happy about it. I haven't had time to be yet.

I passed out in the bathtub a few nights ago and when I woke up in deep water with the shower still on of course it took me a few seconds for me to process where I was and what had happened.

I wasn't physically hurt. I've never done that before then. I won't lie. I was a little emotionally shaken.

But it has temporarily affected my motor skills (I have no idea why). No other cognitive functioning was affected in any way.

My motor skills (fine motor skills as evidenced by the fact that for days I was trying to write texts and kept texting a single letter of the alphabet again and again, annoying my recipients).

This brings me to my mood. I should note for the sake of completeness that this experience seems to have affected my mood. To make a long story shorter, I find myself in a bad mood pretty much constantly since this experience.

My RM didn't come into the bathroom, didn't offer to help me get up, didn't offer me a towel, nothing. My cousin got annoyed at my texts, but was untroubled by the fact I passed out and had a near death experience. I had to explain why I was having trouble texting 4 times. My sister-in-law, for her part, told me this evening that if it was affecting my functioning, to call an ambulance. This is in spite of the fact that I had already plainly said the ER can't help me in this situation.

My motor skills are improving (as you can see). The key has been rest, sleeping, insisting to myself to go at my own pace, and to ignore pressure from anyone to do otherwise.

I'm feeling better every day.

My falling off the moving gate injuries are still in a healing state and might not heal entirely.

At least, all of the physical wounds have scabbed or gone away, and I don't have to be obsessed with wound care every time I get my dominant hand wet. Yeah!

So, cousin, SIL, and I are all in bad moods for various reasons and are not having pleasant interactions. I'll leave it at that. Hopefully, time will heal us.

Everything is moving forward quickly. Everyone knew this would happen. I don't know why we don't feel ready. I'm definitely including myself in this assessment.

I'm going to say just a few words about probate. My father's net worth turned out to be (now that I have a full accounting in front of me and don't have to rely on my cousin's word) a few dollars short of $750,000.

The cost of living is high. Contractors' fees and attorneys' fees were high. Administrative fees, to my mind, were outrageous.

This is my conclusion about probate: probate is an industry.

There.

I said it.

@andyd Thanks for the reminder not that it was your intention.

I have leather bags (from Time Resistance, hand made, Florence, highly recommend), a backpack and a sling bag (such a primal, ancient shape, like a bag for holding seeds in the field- my favorite) AND the leather requires a certain type of balm.

You can buy it from the company or elsewhere. I've decided I will buy it from the company.

I'm remiss for not doing it already.

The other day I saw my backpack in the sunlight.

I wiped it down with a solution of light vinegar and water. Then I dried it immediately.

Love it!

This country was founded on Enlightenment principles.

But good luck arguing with a Christian nationalist. Smashing your head against a concrete wall would be a better use of your time.

They believe in a metaphysical power, as the professor said, and they also believe that their point of view constitutes absolute truth.

They are theocratic and their metaphysical views contain some very strange ideas.

All of this would be fine, if they understood that their religious beliefs were their private concern.

But, no. They feel perfectly justified in trying to create a world in which an apocalypse would happen.

I live in a Evangelical Christian neighborhood.

Let's just say that hell will freeze over before I'll be inviting any of them to my home.

I guess I'm beyond the culture shock, and there are good and bad people in any group, but, in general, what I have encountered is appalling to me.

YMMV.

@bernard I would say definitely Jeffries, and, I would say, anyone else, including Fetterman, who has been bought and paid for by AIPAC, and is doing the bidding of a foreign country.

Well, into every life a little rain must fall. Pilots do an amazing job, every day. They're awesome. My guess is that they'll handle this like the professionals we know then to be.

Pilots? Respect!

Welcome to the club.

It will be a report. I'm all for that.

I'm afraid it will affect nothing, though.

I know!

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These are the plain, cold, hard facts.

With all due respect to Franks, in my humble opinion, he has lost the plot.

I respect the fact that he intends to show the sincerity of his views, given the facts and circumstances.

I have no ill will toward him, and wish for him what I would wish for any good person-- a painless transition from this world to the next.

However, I can not agree with his politics, in general.

It's been de rigueur to attack the left for as long as I can remember.

It's not productive. It's counter-productive, and, considering the numerous, various sources over the years-- it's a sad, if not a pathetic phenomenon akin to Stockholm Syndrome.

Unfortunately, in my humble opinion, Franks will go down in history as something of milquetoast politician.

The American people want the New Deal as much as they have always wanted it, no matter the wrecking balls that have been taken to it.

Democrats should 1. stop their internecine warfare; 2. stop supporting these foreign wars and; 3. truly focus on the need the American people have for a functioning society.

Speaking out of both sides of his mouth, patronizing, cloying, dishonest, and bearing false witness.

We're doomed.

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Was there ever any question?