I'll post it but my question is about atavism, in the most narrow philosophical sense, for context.

'In philosophy, social theory, and the history of ideas, atavism refers to the persistence or sudden re-emergence of ancient, primitive, or obsolete ways of thinking, acting, and organizing society within the modern world.
Rather than viewing human history as a smooth, upward march of progress, philosophers use atavism to explain why "modern" people and institutions frequently relapse into primal instincts, tribalism, or outdated social structures."

So, whether its a "real definition" or not, I mean the tendency of people in modern society for individual to seem to see themselves and to act as atavised units.

In plain English, I went to the Dr. Yesterday. I went to the pharmacy today.

I noticed that, as usual, to a person (except my nurse, and to my pleasant surprise, the pharmacy manager at my CVS (who once got so insulted by a particular unprofessional incident for which she was completely to blame, that I pointed my finger at while telling her off and switching pharmacies-and I don't do that. I rarely tell people off, and I had never pointed my finger in someone's face- that's something I just don't do) everyone was what I call atavistic.

Just doing a job, these people. I get it.

But in terms of affect and demeanor- stone cold.

May the usual banter or silence- but no, again stone cold.

I know that's just life but it's freaking me out.

People care if they live or die. The same people wouldn't care if you dropped dead.

I know this is just life. It's just Florida. It's just business.

But it's freaking me out a little.

Any thoughts? Should I get an emotion support animal? j/k

Should I get a cat? (not kidding)

I wanted to live alone and I know I'm lucky in this day and age to be able to do it.

You can come in my home with my consent, a warrant, or if you're the authorities and have reason to believe there's an emergency.

I've never had this before in my life.

However, the "realism" and reality of being alone come with it, apparently.

Or, it's probably more accurate to say, that these aspects of life become impossible to ignore.

Cliche alert.

They say nothing in life is free. It's true.